Heart to Heart

Felling very grateful to The Lord for his goodness, loving kindness and mercy towards me. No, I haven’t had some miraculous event happen. As a matter of fact, I am currently over my head in debts and bills, with no means of paying them. But in spite of that I received an epiphany concerning his great love and provision for me.  If I let go and trust him completely, he will show me what I need to do to release the blockages that are hindering the provisions that I need from coming through.  No, it’s not connected to my tithing, or any of the other ways to “receive” The Lords blessing that most churches teach.
In actuality, this revelation came on the heels of me looking at a couple of DVD’s that were talking about alternative methods, and ways of healing ourselves from aches and pains in the body. One of the studies revealed that 95% of the physical ailments that we experience in our bodies, is tied to negative emotions, energy that has been stored in our sub conscious mind; which is believed to be where our true belief system lies. It was said that our conscious mind only holds 5% of what we believe, and when our sub conscious beliefs don’t align with our conscious beliefs, the result causes discord in the body which produces negative energy that sometimes get trapped and causes disease. I know for some, this sounds like a bunch of New age mumbo jumbo that I as a Christian should not be entertaining. My belief is that if you truly are a believer then you would realize that much of this knowledge, though not spoken of by our Lord as put, is the basis of what he knew to be true and came to deliver and save us from.  That’s another discussion.  As I was listening, much of it resonated within me and I was able to see why Jesus would admonish us to think and meditate on his words, or not to do and live in certain ways. He knew that in doing so we could be saved from having to experience the perils of what happens if we don’t follow his recommendations. What they were saying, and have found as answers to our body’s miraculous ability to heal itself; was given by my Lord, but his emphasis is that he be the anchor and guide to get us through it. He said that we have to renew our minds from all the ways that we have been programmed into, to the new life of Hope and deliverance he has provided. That mind renewal is practical and spiritual in nature.
I am constantly amazed at how the bible really does hold the answers to all we need in life; particularly the new testament of Jesus Christ. He really did come to give us life in abundance. The problem is,  we read it (the Bible) with our pre programmed religious views, and from a mental, academic mindset, and we miss, or don’t get the truth and essence of what it is saying. That’s because it is a living word who’s truths cannot be fully unlocked through mental knowledge and understanding alone, but in essence of spirit. Jesus said his words are life. In order to get the true essence of who he is, and what he did for us; we have to connect with his words realizing that they are alive and in spirit, emphasis mine.

In many ways it’s like the quark in quantum physics.  It is hard to stabilize or capture because it takes shape and appearance based on the energy of the person that is viewing it at the time.

I went to a deeper level of understanding about myself today, and had a real heart to heart that exposed an area in my spiritual life that needed some mending. From that I have a renewed sense of who I am, and who’s I am.   No all the answered aren’t there yet, nor have my circumstances changed as of yet, but I am ok and at peace with where I am right now; because I KNOW it will all be okay.
I was told that we would have frustrations, trials, and troubles in this world but that I could be at peace, resting in the fact that it has all been taken care of.

Peace comes from me realizing that if he is God, and sees the end from the beginning, and have my life in his hands with plans for me to have Hope and a prosperous future; then I can trust that he will come through on his promise that he will take care of all that concerns me with me being blessed and not cursed.  I’m aware that to you that sounds like one of those “wacky parables” but I understand what he means, and it’s from there that I derive my sense of calm in the midst of this storm.

Anyway, I am thankful for all that he has provided and more excited for this continued journey of life. I am amazed at all we don’t see even with our eyes wide open. I would encourage all believers to not get hung up in all the idioms that are nothing more than chains of bondage, and just begin to simply be transparent with where you really are as you trust him to lead and guide you along the way. The foundation of our faith says that if we believe in our heart, we will be saved. That heart belief goes much deeper to achieve than we are led to believe, but if we take the first step in confessing him as our Lord and ask him to work on our hearts while we begin the process of renewing our mind, we’ll be blown away at what he reveals and does in us. I am yet finding out. Well that’s what I have been dwelling on today. What’s tugging at your heart?


Irreversibly broken or choosing to stay…..

Are we stuck in our life’s web of irreversible destruction, and misery or are we able to turn the tide, and change the paths that have ripped through our lives; sometimes from generation to generation.  Well I have news for you.  While we are not able to go back and change the course of events from what’s passed, we do have the power to choose, and control our actions, and reactions going forward just by what we allow to permeate our mind.

Neuroscientists have discovered that conditions once thought to be irreversible are now reversible just by building new pathways that override old ones (in so many words) Constant repetition, and rehearsal of thoughts lay down, and reinforce new neural pathways of learning.http://www.drleaf.com

These become the patterns that form our belief system, and life actions.  Experiences of abuse, neglect, and trauma may have caused us to look at, and operate through life jaded, and with lenses colored by those experiences, but we don’t have to stay there, we don’t have to continue to live our lives through those experiences? We can do as the book of wisdom instructs and “choose” choose this day to renew our minds, and change those neuro pathways of pain, and destruction to create ones that give life, and peace.

What thought imprints are you laying down today? What are you allowing to continue to enslave you?
I would love to hear from you.

Out of the darkness. All that is negative and dark can begin to show promise

20140317-094648.jpgFocusing on what you don’t have or on situations that displease you, allows the mind to become darkened. You take for granted the breath of life, , sunshine, flowers, a sound mind, and countless other beauties that life has to offer. It places your focus on what is wrong, going bad or the negatives that surround you. It makes you look for what is wrong and refuse to enjoy life until whatever is wrong or dark is “fixed.

If the perspective changes at the moment of the darkened thought, to instead be thankful; the world will begin to change in your view, and all that is negative and dark can begin to show promise and have light; because instead of you being pulled down the rabbit hole of darkness you now, are pulling the darkness up into the world of light where you have the power to control what you allow in…
What can you be thankful for today? Me it’s being able to sit here and encourage you to along with me pull out of the darkness, that I have breath and a mind to choose. That I have the power to choose what kind of life I am going to have, through my thoughts. I would love to hear what you are thankful for and, together we can encourage one another in this journey of life….




Whether your birth was planned or not :  You were not an accident.  You were specifically, and purposefully created to be here. of all the three hundred million sperm that is released upon ejaculation why is it that you were the one to make it through all of the perils that it took for you to BE?  That is the question that you are searching the answer for, that is the hunger and thirst that drives you.  Take a moment and soak that in.  Then realize that you are Loved, wanted and needed.  Your creator (whom I believe to be the great I AM) of the Bible.  Made sure that you would BE.  and against all that life has thrown your way, you are still here.  Take the time to find out why and allow the beautiful butterfly that is waiting to be born to soar.  Selah

Scenes from my Inner Thoughts

ImageFor the invisible things of him are made intelligible and clearly discernible in and throughout the things that are made…..an excerpt from Romans 1:20. That is the thought that infiltrated my mind this morning as I was sitting and thinking about a direction of my life.
I had a quick vision of me in a classroom that I was the teacher in, talking to a student that I was helping with a life circumstance. In the discussion I was helping him to understand that it is not God making or causing bad things to happen in life. Some things are like phisics; laws that are set in motion being played out.
I am of the persuasion that God is supernaturally natural. Though he is spirit and works in the realm of the supernatural, there are many things he set in the natural realm, that are just a part of what takes place when boundaries are violated. I think we look so much for his workings in our lives to be so other worldly that we miss his simplicity. He has let us know that his qualities can be clearly seen throughout his creation even our own human bodies.
Imagethink of George Washington Carver in all that he did with the peanut. He came up with a myriad of of things that could be used from that one little nut. And, when asked how he thought of them he said, that he would go into what he called “Gods little workshop” and consult the one who created the peanut. Using the knowledge that he had about science, and the wisdom of God, he was able to uncover all of the various attributes that was possible from that one little nut.
The saying “life is like a box of chocolates, you never know what you’re going to get” is another thought that comes to mind in the thinking of life’s little surprises. In reality many of the things we get out of life can be known, we just aren’t looking or paying attention to the right things. Again the invisible things are seen by the things that are visible.
Our actions whether positive or negative will have a reaction or yield a result of some sort. Our thoughts are producing, wether intentional or not; some sort of pattern that our mind and body follows, either in the non conscious or conscious realm.
This dance called life is a wonderful world that has so much to get out of before it’s over. Each one having a distinct purpose and unique dynamic that we only can fulfill; while symbiotically fitting in to the whole of the puzzle. And the way to navigate through it receiving all that we are to do has been made available; if we are only willing to look to the one who created the map in the first place.
NPoint is, there are no random happenings in our lives, it is not like a jumbled box of chocolates, it’s not an accident nor fate setting its course. Our life was formed with a set purpose and design and when we don’t follow the design the laws of consequence are activated. God is not some irrational connivence that we can throw all the ills of life onto as being his fault for not interrupting and making them go away.

His attributes, qualities and awesomeness is clearly seen and understood through his creation, and if we slow down enough and look we will see that he has set us up pretty well; even provided a way of escaping what we have messed up and torn down. But of course that’s too simple for us to see, you see were too busy complicating the message berating and blaming it for not fitting into our form of acceptance. Life is like a box of chocolates, you get to choose.

The Epiphany

Strange thing happened while sitting here at the airport, waiting for my flight to board, reminiscing over the past six weeks here in California with my family. I am sitting here observing myself, observe me. It feels like an out of body experience; as I sit here, and watch myself step outside of me and observe my thoughts and feelings. I knew upon coming that the experience would yield for me far more than what I initially came here for.
Though I did not know what, I knew that this trip would be a part of something that would set me on a new path or be part of a new sense of destiny. God works in multiples, he doesn’t just move you in directions for one purpose but works multiple plans simultaneously.

I felt a sense of confidence and purpose that I had not felt before I Lula, at the airport traveling alone, a black woman, who was once timid and afraid to think on my own having been brainwashed into trying to be “mindless” (that is another story), now here thinking about the possibilities in my life. Now feeling like for the first time that I am heading in a direction in my life that I dreamed of, making moves, and plans that come from my own passion and drive, knowing that it is ok and giving myself permission to do things that I thought of before but was never confident enough to peruse, that I didn’t think I could do or deserve to have.

I actually feel like I can. That I now actually have permission to enjoy life, and do something that I want. That I can actually dictate the direction that I want my life to go not dependent on anyone else’s wishes or get their permission. I don’t even have to worry about wether I am in the will of God or not, because he has placed his song in my heart and for the first time in my life I’m actually hearing it. I know that may sound strange coming from a 54 year old grandmother but when your teens and nearly all of your adult life is lived under the dictates of someone else’s control, abuse, misuse and advantage, you loose who you are, and what your true purpose for being here is, along with any desires, ambitions or potential you may have or had.

It is such a free and exhilarating feeling to think and feel that you want to do something in life and know you can, and have what it takes to get there. It is a testament that at any age you can awaken and take hold of your freedom to BE……


There is a story in the book of wisdom that tells of a wise and powerful king that contained wisdom for the ages and power to heal, a passage in his story reads: “When He reached the house and went in, the blind men came to Him, and The wise one said to them do you believe that I am able to do this? (Speaking of healing the blind men) they said to Him, Yes, Lord. Then he touched their eyes, saying, according to your faith and trust and reliance [on the power invested in Me] be it done to you”…

Just as in this passage. He asked the blind men if they believed that he was able to heal them, and they said yes, he then said to the degree that you believe, trust and rely on me and my power to do for you it will be to that degree that you will receive from me.

Our belief is the key and ground work that starts the life changing process for us to BE who we were destined to BE. It is the substance of what you hope for though you may not see any evidence of it yet, you keep believing and seeking, and searching, the desired life will begin to unveil before you.

You will find yourself running into people speaking the language of your desired destiny. You will find yourself receiving the information that you need to go to the next step. It will be as though a whole new world will unfold right before your eyes. It’s not that it suddenly appeared because it was really there all along you just realized it. “According to your belief” BE it unto you…..

New Year, New You


As I was listening to an inspirational message today I heard this statement, and thought it very fitting as we go into the new year ” you don’t get what you want you get who you are”.
Many of us are making our resolutions and declarations, this is the year, this is the year that I will be different, I will loose the weight, go to school, accomplish that goal that seems to keep eluding me, but will we really?

I ask the question; why do you think this year will be any different than the last? What are you setting in place that will make you different than who you were, because as the statement says, “you don’t get what you want, you get who you are. Question is who are you?

Is who you are a result of who someone else has stated you are or would ever be, or the label that has branded you for life? If who you are now is not who you want to be then find out what you need to do to become what you want.

Don’t allow someone else’s opinion of you become your reality. You were created by an intelligent God who made you in his image and gave you all the tools to reflect his glory, you are only limited by you, who you see yourself to be. Be Empowered, get the tools you need to help change your life, get involved with people and programs that will help you to be who you need to be to get where you want to go. The new year is a fresh start to reflect, assess, regroup, recharge and go forth. Change who you are and BE…

The Lioness

20130822-222957.jpgThe Lioness has risen strong, powerful, and magnificent.
Empowered with courage, strength and might, to be bold and stand strong in the fight.
The fight against lies, hatred, and deceit. All that the enemy uses to defeat.

The Lioness has risen Endowed with all the qualities needed to succeed, as long as to her Lord she continues to heed.
The Lioness has risen; standing strong, full of insight and wisdom, to bring understanding to all who will listen. She holds within her the Powers of heaven to restore and set free, all whom she’s been given.

She is powerful, confident and filled with courage, ready to embrace those who are tired and discouraged. Ready to bring them to the well where the waters run deep,
Quieting the troubled soul allowing them to receive; the message spoken loud and clear, to all who will take heed and hear.
If you trust in me your pain will disappear, deep into the depths of the earth; where I once descended for your rebirth.
My bloodshed for you to be free, no longer in bondage to the guilt of your humanity. I give as a gift life everlasting to all who receive; it’s theirs just for asking.
The Lioness has risen to empower you to be free. Take all that is yours, you who were chosen by me.
The Lioness has risen who might she be? The Lioness is me.

To Thine Ownself Be True

imageI was reading an article that was giving tips on how to be your own brand and ran across the titled statement.  I paused and pondered it for a moment because it struck me as a very powerful point.  We get so caught up in the hustle and bustle of life and things, that we lose our selves in the mix. Many times it happens so fast or subtle that we are not aware until we find ourselves reacting or responding to a word or event that is totally out of character for us.  Then it hits, who are you?

Upon thinking about this I also realized that you cannot be true to yourself if you don’t really know who your true self is.  Are you a wife, that is here just to do the courtesy and expected “wifely” things.  Are you a mother, who runs around like a mad woman trying to appease the needs of her children to no avail or are you just a good employee, that makes sure the wishes of the company and your supervisor/manager is always happy and pleased?

Don’t get me wrong, there is nothing wrong or ignoble about any of those positions.  Our honor and integrity should have us to always strive to be the best person we can be at what ever role in life we hold. But we have to make sure that we are not letting them bury the person that we truly are or desire to be.

In my own life I have found that before I could really be true to myself I had to take a hard look at the me that I was at the time and evaluate every aspect of her.  Was that the person that I always saw myself to be or dreamed of as a child? Or am I functioning in a portion of who I rally am or have been designed to be? If I am then how did I get here and why? Those questions offered me a challenge to evaluate my life and actions.
Often times we are living the life of someone else’s forming and not the one we were created and designed by our creator to fulfill. The current life has come from various sorts of programming about who you are, who you are not to be like, or act like; what you should and should not or can’t do. Not to get me wrong because some of those things were there for our development and safety but when you start to feel this tugging on the inside that there is more, you have more or want to do more, that may be the time to take a good look at where you are, how you got there and whether it is time to ditch some of the precepts and ideals that have crafted you into the clothes you are wearing; and seek a new wardrobe, the one that was designed just for you.
To thine own self be true…….