Time & Space

My daughter sent me an email of something that I had spoken over her and into her  life six years ago. As I read it I was amazed at the timeliness of how accurate and replace the those words are in her life today. It is as if I spoke them into existence for now.  I was gently reminded in my spirit that in our world we are handicapped by time and space. Time is the element that we are running against from the moment we are born until the day it runs out. It regulates everything we do because of our awareness of it’s limitations.

In Gods world there is no limitation of time because he is time. So when he sets something into motion or declares a thing to be, it is, and it is for the past, present and future. My God, my Father, my Lord, my Friend, in who’s image I was created, in awesome wonder. Selah!


“Black Lives Matter” What’s the big deal?

What I am about to say is in no way the fullness of the issues that we are facing today or what is fully behind the Black lives movement.  But It is what began to stir within me as I watched the unfolding of events over the last few days.
The shooting of eleven police officers in Dallas was a senseless act of cold-blooded murder.  This act of violence forced everyone that witnessed it whether on media or in person, to see and feel what it’s like to be a victim or victimized.  And the reason given, was due to the uniform they wore especially being on white skin.
That is clearly seen for what it is, hatred and racism fueled by anger and power taken in their own hands.  That my people is what has been the cry of Black people with the violent, aggressive, and senseless Murders that have been taking place with our Black men.
With the Dallas shootings, there have been and is being such an outpour of sympathy and support for the families, and children left behind, for the officers that have to go out daily and continue their jobs, for the friends that were and will be affected.  All of that and rightly so but….
This is a clear depiction of the inequality and inequity that stirs the cry to say “Black Lives Matter” what do I mean?  The media is pushing stories of  commendations the slain officers have received, the good they did in the communities, how good of a person they were and the impact that their deaths will leave on those left behind.  All of their clean laundry, none of their dirty.
Most importantly, are the acts of kindness, support and commitment that the police force as a whole is being shown, (not that it shouldn’t be) coming from other institutions in the community as well as individuals, lining up to give officers a hug letting them know they are with them, they sympathize…
Statements from police officers of how they appreciate the support because they felt they were alone” how they fear for their lives every time they have to put that uniform on, how they feel they are being targeted”
These are the same cries our black men have  been screaming for years! This is what we are saying that is happening to Blacks in particular.  But it has  not been met with empathy or understanding, instead, when violent acts of murder and brutality from the Police are shown on media towards black men.
The responses are skepticism, criticism and  judgement.  The mans character is immediately put on trial.  What gets magnified is all his faults, criminal behavior whether past present or future.  The general assumption is that he deserved it somehow and then begins the hunt for what he did or didn’t do, that caused him to receive such brutality.
No sympathy for his family or children,  no empathy from the public about the fear that he or his black brothers are faced with on a daily basis; because of the skin they are in.  And worst of all is that there is no justice, every act committed by the uniform ALWAYS no matter what ends in Not Guilty!
No benefit of the doubt towards the possibility that they really are getting targeted or treated unfairly, (executed) without trial but simply because of the skin they are in.
There is a vast chasm about how our justice system treats blacks as opposed to whites.  Why did my husband have to sit our sons down before they were teens and give them the “Golden Rule”  on how they must behave themselves when approached by a cop?  Yes they should learn to respect authority as well as understand that authority will also respect their rights as equal human beings.
That is the war that Blacks have been waging here in America and that is behind the cry today that says Black Lives Matter.  When we can put aside our differences and realize that the same pain and anguish the families of those slain officers are feeling for a senseless act of murder is the same pain and anguish that the families of those slain black men are facing for the murder without justice that their men have faced.  The same fear that police officers feel when they put on that uniform and go out into the community to protect and serve is the same fear that Blacks feel when they go out into the community and get stopped by the police.  We have to learn to set aside our fears, prejudices and misunderstandings towards each other and decide to respect and treat one another like equal human beings.  Yes all lives matter, but the ones that are being extinguished and without the equal protection of the law are Black.  That’s my take on why Black Lives Matter.

Life After……

imageSo here we are, writing, thinking, feeling some kind of way.  Who’d a thunk it, that some twenty plus years later I would be where I am today. Though I have a lot to be thankful for; like my husband of now forty years, my five children still speaking to me and each other.  Them still coming over bringing with them my 13 grand babies for barbecues and to hang out and be around me and their dad.

My going back to school and getting my bachelors then on to get my coaching certification and starting my own non profit all while the wounds are still there and evident but not raw and bleeding from my life before.

 You see when it was all over and the fog finally started to clear, I really saw no hope or reason to continue, didn’t  think my life would have meaning or a reason to persue.  I was disintegrated, marginalized, wiped out and made into a zero.

I had to conform and fit into the collective not be my own person or have my own perspective, oh but life after.

 There is hope, there is a pot of gold on the other side of the rainbow, but you just have to hold on and not give up; for right before your eyes, right in your sphere,  is someone that has passed through your fog to the other side of the cloud; waiting and willing to help pull you through to your, life after.




Other People’s Opinion of You…Not Your Own

image “When people put you down long enough you start to believe it”. I was watching the movie Pretty Woman today and I heard Julia Roberts make that statement. For those who have not seen the movie it’s a Cinderella type love story about a hooker, Julia and her rich Jon Richard Gere who pays her to spend the week with him as his date.  After spending time with her he Begins to see that there’s more to her than what is seen in the life she has been living.
He tells her that she is smart and starts to tell her the good attributes that he sees, she makes the statement, when you hear negative and derogatory things said about you for so long you begin to believe it and then you start to become it,(my emphasis.)  The bad stuff is easier to believe than the good.

Hearing that statement sparked me to write this piece because it’s so true.  Each of us can tell our own story about the unbelief we feel when someone tells us about all the good things they see or admire about us.

How much do we focus on and believe the criticisms of others more than the strengths and capabilities that we hold.

Even when we do know our owns strengths and gifts,we many times cower back in the background and let others take ownership and responsibility for things we clearly know we would do better.  We do it because we either don’t really believe in ourselves enough or are afraid to step up and take on the challenge.

We don’t have to allow other people’s opinion of us to become our reality.  We need only believe in ourselves enough to know that we can do what we determine or were gifted to do, and watch our environment open up and lead us into the right time and place.

But as the pretty woman said, it’s easier to believe the bad stuff.  My take is because we have been conditioned to.

It’s easier and does not take much effort.  When you decide to press in to who you know you were meant to be, you are many times going up stream in a downhill current.

One of the things I have been working on to help renew my mind to believe the truth about who I am, is to participate in the daily A.B.L.E. challenge that Charity’s Hope has going for the month.  Research shows that it takes twenty eight days to change a habit.

Doing the A.B.L.E’s for tthirtyt days is building a new habit.  A.B.L.E. stands for A Beautiful Loving Expression.  It is a statement you start with “I am” A Beautiful Loving Expression of……what ever you are declaring to be the expression of that day.

The goal is to get you to think about who you are or the you that you are striving to be.  In thinking about who that is, you begin to speak or declare to yourself what Beautiful, Loving, Expression of that person you are going to be that day.  It doesn’t matter if that is you Yet.  In declaring it at the beginning of your day you are planting the seeds in your conscious mind to start hearing out of your own mouth, what you believe about yourself.

As you hear yourself  expressing the positive attributes of you in the tense of it being now; you are re conditioning yourself to believe that it is,  even if  not yet in full manifestation.  This makes it normal and natural as you begin to operate in the Beautiful Loving Expressions of yourself that you have declared to be you.

This is the process of not allowing other people’s opinions of you become your reality unless that opinion is in agreement with the reality of you that you know to be the one you choose.  You don’t have to believe the unbelief of others about you, when they speak their negative beliefs you declare, I am A.B.L.E!

Adversity the stuff that builds fortitude

20140317-094648.jpg  We, Charity’s Hope are doing a 30 day challenge to declare what we are ABLE (A Beautiful Loving Expression) of; to retrain our minds from focusing on what we are not or cannot do to who we are and are doing. The challenge is to wake up and declare what you will be A beautiful loving expression of, and make that your goal for the day or what you are as a result of what you have already gone through and have come out with.
Today my A.B.L.E was fortitude. I choose that because with what I have passed through in my life, I would be considered a statistic and tragedy, a life wasted. Instead I am a Victor and more powerful than I have ever been. When I looked up the definition of fortitude it was truly a match because it means: “Strength of mind that allows one to endure pain or adversity” It is was the pain and adversity of my life that gave me the strength to know that I can and will succeed at anything I choose to do. What doesn’t kill you truly does make you stronger, you just have to change your paradigm(the way you look at or perceive a thing) and refuse to be a statistic.
We are one thought away from any direction we want to go in life. You cannot change your past, it is done, but you can change your response to the circumstances of it by choosing to accept a higher view of what happened. It does not mean we ignore or be in denial of it but that we choose to not allow it to dictate our lives going forward. In doing so we give ourselves freedom and are liberated from the chains that keeps us enslaved to the person, thing or circumstance that inflicted or contributed to the pain or adversity. It is in the mind that we either stay locked in the time and space of the event or walk out of it into the future that we choose. Fortitude, it is fortitude that I have walked out of my adversity with, because now that I Am, I know that I can do/be whatever I choose, not what is expected.

Heart to Heart

Felling very grateful to The Lord for his goodness, loving kindness and mercy towards me. No, I haven’t had some miraculous event happen. As a matter of fact, I am currently over my head in debts and bills, with no means of paying them. But in spite of that I received an epiphany concerning his great love and provision for me.  If I let go and trust him completely, he will show me what I need to do to release the blockages that are hindering the provisions that I need from coming through.  No, it’s not connected to my tithing, or any of the other ways to “receive” The Lords blessing that most churches teach.
In actuality, this revelation came on the heels of me looking at a couple of DVD’s that were talking about alternative methods, and ways of healing ourselves from aches and pains in the body. One of the studies revealed that 95% of the physical ailments that we experience in our bodies, is tied to negative emotions, energy that has been stored in our sub conscious mind; which is believed to be where our true belief system lies. It was said that our conscious mind only holds 5% of what we believe, and when our sub conscious beliefs don’t align with our conscious beliefs, the result causes discord in the body which produces negative energy that sometimes get trapped and causes disease. I know for some, this sounds like a bunch of New age mumbo jumbo that I as a Christian should not be entertaining. My belief is that if you truly are a believer then you would realize that much of this knowledge, though not spoken of by our Lord as put, is the basis of what he knew to be true and came to deliver and save us from.  That’s another discussion.  As I was listening, much of it resonated within me and I was able to see why Jesus would admonish us to think and meditate on his words, or not to do and live in certain ways. He knew that in doing so we could be saved from having to experience the perils of what happens if we don’t follow his recommendations. What they were saying, and have found as answers to our body’s miraculous ability to heal itself; was given by my Lord, but his emphasis is that he be the anchor and guide to get us through it. He said that we have to renew our minds from all the ways that we have been programmed into, to the new life of Hope and deliverance he has provided. That mind renewal is practical and spiritual in nature.
I am constantly amazed at how the bible really does hold the answers to all we need in life; particularly the new testament of Jesus Christ. He really did come to give us life in abundance. The problem is,  we read it (the Bible) with our pre programmed religious views, and from a mental, academic mindset, and we miss, or don’t get the truth and essence of what it is saying. That’s because it is a living word who’s truths cannot be fully unlocked through mental knowledge and understanding alone, but in essence of spirit. Jesus said his words are life. In order to get the true essence of who he is, and what he did for us; we have to connect with his words realizing that they are alive and in spirit, emphasis mine.

In many ways it’s like the quark in quantum physics.  It is hard to stabilize or capture because it takes shape and appearance based on the energy of the person that is viewing it at the time.

I went to a deeper level of understanding about myself today, and had a real heart to heart that exposed an area in my spiritual life that needed some mending. From that I have a renewed sense of who I am, and who’s I am.   No all the answered aren’t there yet, nor have my circumstances changed as of yet, but I am ok and at peace with where I am right now; because I KNOW it will all be okay.
I was told that we would have frustrations, trials, and troubles in this world but that I could be at peace, resting in the fact that it has all been taken care of.

Peace comes from me realizing that if he is God, and sees the end from the beginning, and have my life in his hands with plans for me to have Hope and a prosperous future; then I can trust that he will come through on his promise that he will take care of all that concerns me with me being blessed and not cursed.  I’m aware that to you that sounds like one of those “wacky parables” but I understand what he means, and it’s from there that I derive my sense of calm in the midst of this storm.

Anyway, I am thankful for all that he has provided and more excited for this continued journey of life. I am amazed at all we don’t see even with our eyes wide open. I would encourage all believers to not get hung up in all the idioms that are nothing more than chains of bondage, and just begin to simply be transparent with where you really are as you trust him to lead and guide you along the way. The foundation of our faith says that if we believe in our heart, we will be saved. That heart belief goes much deeper to achieve than we are led to believe, but if we take the first step in confessing him as our Lord and ask him to work on our hearts while we begin the process of renewing our mind, we’ll be blown away at what he reveals and does in us. I am yet finding out. Well that’s what I have been dwelling on today. What’s tugging at your heart?

Irreversibly broken or choosing to stay…..

Are we stuck in our life’s web of irreversible destruction, and misery or are we able to turn the tide, and change the paths that have ripped through our lives; sometimes from generation to generation.  Well I have news for you.  While we are not able to go back and change the course of events from what’s passed, we do have the power to choose, and control our actions, and reactions going forward just by what we allow to permeate our mind.

Neuroscientists have discovered that conditions once thought to be irreversible are now reversible just by building new pathways that override old ones (in so many words) Constant repetition, and rehearsal of thoughts lay down, and reinforce new neural pathways of learning.http://www.drleaf.com

These become the patterns that form our belief system, and life actions.  Experiences of abuse, neglect, and trauma may have caused us to look at, and operate through life jaded, and with lenses colored by those experiences, but we don’t have to stay there, we don’t have to continue to live our lives through those experiences? We can do as the book of wisdom instructs and “choose” choose this day to renew our minds, and change those neuro pathways of pain, and destruction to create ones that give life, and peace.

What thought imprints are you laying down today? What are you allowing to continue to enslave you?
I would love to hear from you.

Out of the darkness. All that is negative and dark can begin to show promise

20140317-094648.jpgFocusing on what you don’t have or on situations that displease you, allows the mind to become darkened. You take for granted the breath of life, , sunshine, flowers, a sound mind, and countless other beauties that life has to offer. It places your focus on what is wrong, going bad or the negatives that surround you. It makes you look for what is wrong and refuse to enjoy life until whatever is wrong or dark is “fixed.

If the perspective changes at the moment of the darkened thought, to instead be thankful; the world will begin to change in your view, and all that is negative and dark can begin to show promise and have light; because instead of you being pulled down the rabbit hole of darkness you now, are pulling the darkness up into the world of light where you have the power to control what you allow in…
What can you be thankful for today? Me it’s being able to sit here and encourage you to along with me pull out of the darkness, that I have breath and a mind to choose. That I have the power to choose what kind of life I am going to have, through my thoughts. I would love to hear what you are thankful for and, together we can encourage one another in this journey of life….

The Epiphany

Strange thing happened while sitting here at the airport, waiting for my flight to board, reminiscing over the past six weeks here in California with my family. I am sitting here observing myself, observe me. It feels like an out of body experience; as I sit here, and watch myself step outside of me and observe my thoughts and feelings. I knew upon coming that the experience would yield for me far more than what I initially came here for.
Though I did not know what, I knew that this trip would be a part of something that would set me on a new path or be part of a new sense of destiny. God works in multiples, he doesn’t just move you in directions for one purpose but works multiple plans simultaneously.

I felt a sense of confidence and purpose that I had not felt before I Lula, at the airport traveling alone, a black woman, who was once timid and afraid to think on my own having been brainwashed into trying to be “mindless” (that is another story), now here thinking about the possibilities in my life. Now feeling like for the first time that I am heading in a direction in my life that I dreamed of, making moves, and plans that come from my own passion and drive, knowing that it is ok and giving myself permission to do things that I thought of before but was never confident enough to peruse, that I didn’t think I could do or deserve to have.

I actually feel like I can. That I now actually have permission to enjoy life, and do something that I want. That I can actually dictate the direction that I want my life to go not dependent on anyone else’s wishes or get their permission. I don’t even have to worry about wether I am in the will of God or not, because he has placed his song in my heart and for the first time in my life I’m actually hearing it. I know that may sound strange coming from a 54 year old grandmother but when your teens and nearly all of your adult life is lived under the dictates of someone else’s control, abuse, misuse and advantage, you loose who you are, and what your true purpose for being here is, along with any desires, ambitions or potential you may have or had.

It is such a free and exhilarating feeling to think and feel that you want to do something in life and know you can, and have what it takes to get there. It is a testament that at any age you can awaken and take hold of your freedom to BE……


There is a story in the book of wisdom that tells of a wise and powerful king that contained wisdom for the ages and power to heal, a passage in his story reads: “When He reached the house and went in, the blind men came to Him, and The wise one said to them do you believe that I am able to do this? (Speaking of healing the blind men) they said to Him, Yes, Lord. Then he touched their eyes, saying, according to your faith and trust and reliance [on the power invested in Me] be it done to you”…

Just as in this passage. He asked the blind men if they believed that he was able to heal them, and they said yes, he then said to the degree that you believe, trust and rely on me and my power to do for you it will be to that degree that you will receive from me.

Our belief is the key and ground work that starts the life changing process for us to BE who we were destined to BE. It is the substance of what you hope for though you may not see any evidence of it yet, you keep believing and seeking, and searching, the desired life will begin to unveil before you.

You will find yourself running into people speaking the language of your desired destiny. You will find yourself receiving the information that you need to go to the next step. It will be as though a whole new world will unfold right before your eyes. It’s not that it suddenly appeared because it was really there all along you just realized it. “According to your belief” BE it unto you…..